The literal meaning of “Phobia” is FEAR.I have my own list
of phobias…One of the many that tops my phobia list ,is the fear for lizards!
The moment I see it, I run miles away from the place!!! My heart beats
superfast and I come to a normal state only when I find it away from my
vicinity!!!phew
None of the other phobias bothered me much until we packed
our baggage for an unplanned impromptu vacation to Wayanad!I was all excited to
visit a new place, the food etc etc!!!My
joy had no bounds!!!Since it was a last minute plan, we tried our hands in
tatkal and got the tickets too!!Summer was at its peak and so my husband had
booked berths in third AC…I thought, the third AC was going to be a complete
respite for the otherwise sultry summer night!!!But I was proved wrong laterJ
We boarded the train and I felt cool and happy!!!The kid and
I sat in the lower berth and started to sight see the platform through the
window!!!The train started to budge!!!The TTR came, checked the tickets!!!All
was ok until a passenger wanted to occupy the lower berth, where we were
sitting. A quick check with husband and I found, we were allotted with 2 middle
berths! Since my boy was around less than 4 years old then, he was exempted for
the ticket!!!
We converted the berth!!!It was also the first time, that I
was travelling for a longer distance in train with my toddler and that too in a middle berth! My son was restless with
the closed enclosure He was trying to stand and move but the berth was not
spacious enough!!!With great difficulty , I cooked up stories and made him to
sleep! Heaved a sigh of relief only to see my husband comfortably snoring to
glory!
I started to close my eyes and enter into the sleep mode,
but I started to feel that unexplainable uneasiness! There was no space to turn
and I started to sweat!!!Would it be because of the not so comfortable pillow?Would
it be because of poor AC(the air was not cool),I started to question myself and
identify the reasons but in vain!!!Looked at the watch to
find, only an hour has crossed and we had some solid 6 hours to kill.Tried
waking my husband but in vain..
Felt enough was enough..Got down and checked with few
passengers who were occupying lower berth ..To my disappointment , most of them
already slept and a few rejected to swap berths…I still tried my best to close
my eyes,but the phobia of sleeping in middle berth scared me to hell..Was
feeling totally helpless and took my
blankets and shifted to the floor..Yes you read it right..Slept on the floor
and requested the lower berth passengers to be cautious while climbing down as
I had my kid also with me sleeping on the floor.I was more than happy when we
neared our destination after a sleepless mosquito biting night!!phew that was
on horrible day that I will never forget!
From then on , my fear for upper and middle berth increased
greatly !I called off my journey, whenever I got upper berths. Last weekend ,I had a mandatory personal reason to travel
and unfortunately got an upper berth.. But this time with all the guts, I was
able to sail through the journey?Ask me how?Here is the reason.
When I was totally worried about my travel and especially
about the upper berth, bumped at my aunt.She pepped me up by saying,how her
daughter travels all alone to different parts of the world with no major
support. She said,when we are left helpless,we should not fret but tackle
things all alone..
There I got my gyaan..I was completely motivated on seeing
my cousin and said to myself that,come what may,I have to tackle things..And
when I got into the upper birth with my son,I said to myself,”all is well” and
tried all possible ways to suppress my subconscious negative pullers and
voila,I was able to break my phobia J
So did you have phobia?How did you overcome it?
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